bullet

president's bullet-ridden body in the street

ride johnny ride

kennedy's shattered head hits concrete

ride johnny ride

johnny's wife is floundering

johnny's wife is scared

run jackie run

texas is an outrage when your husband is dead

texas is an outrage when they pick up his head

texas is the reason that the presidents dead

you gotta suck, suck, jackie suck

president's bullet-ridden body in the street

ride johnny ride

kennedy's shattered head hits concrete

ride johnny ride

texas is an outrage when your husband is dead

texas is an outrage when they pick up his head

texas is the reason that the presidents dead

you gotta suck, suck, jackie suck

arise jackie o, jonathan f kennedy

well, arise and be shot down

the dirts going to be your dessert

my cum be your life source

and the only way to get it

is to suck or fuck

or be poor and devoid

and masturbate me, masturbate me

then slurp it from your palm

like a dry desert, soaking up rain

soaking up sun

like a dry desert, soaking up rain

soaking up sun.

will you smile again

so i got a job. as an assistant producer at sony. it makes the 6 years ive been in test feel like they were worth something. i had committed myself to my current job being the last in the video game industry as a tester. and as soon as i made plans to move to atlanta and steer my path in another direction,  this job appears out of motherfuckin left field. so, next week, i start my first job worth giving a shit about in my first 26 and 11/12 years on planet rock.

the reason behind moving to atlanta isnt my proudest. i couldnt cope with the idea of continuing to be the least successful person in my group of friends. it wasnt a money thing, it was a cycle of shit jobs with no prospect for any sort of future. it was my apathy towards life that allowed me to get where i was(nowhere) and that apathy was my safety net of rationalizing failure. if i dont give a shit about life, then why would i give a shit about my terrible job that im embarrassed to be at daily. yeah, so fuck that. apathy will always have a presence in my life, but its time to stop using it as a crutch to explain a bullshit worthless existence. im nervous about this job, just because im afraid of fucking it up. pretty standard insecurity bullshit, that im sure will be erased immediately upon starting work. the big thing for me is being able to feel like im a real part of something ive felt stuck on the outside of.  

in the morning

how much longer can i hope to save her from herself? big news is coming this week, its yet to be seen if its good or bad, but regardless, changes are coming. there has to be some rule against using three commas that close together in a sentence. if i get the job i interviewed for last week, ill be staying in la and hopefully having a new drive to live here. if i dont get it, im moving to atlanta by the end of the year. i think thats all i got today.